That is, until now.
You came to live with me, I think, in July of 2011. We have lived together almost a year and a half. It has been wonderful, until now.
You have two sides. One side - the side that Lisa sees - is a kind, shy, humorous young girl, that speaks so positively of her present and her future.
A young girl that had so much potential. I wanted to help tap into that. I wanted to help you reach
your maximum potential.
And the other side that I see in addition to that: the young girl who decieves, is unkind, disrespectful, immature, and unhappy.
I am sorry that you are unhappy.
I am sorry that you have not learned that I could have been your biggest ally; that there has never been a reason to decieve me. I have always, up until now, been your biggest fan. I could have assisted you in achieving your greatest dreams.
There has been nothing over the last year and a half that you have done that could change my love for you. I love you - I have loved you since I learned of your existence. You are my favorite, and nothing can change that.
However - Here it goes - you are in PCB.
I know, but you did not tell me. I discovered this because...
You are a very bad liar.
That is good.
I hope that you never become a good liar.
We spoke of this trip - to PCB - let me remind you: I stated you should not take this trip because you are indebted to me. It would be wrong.
For some reason, you chose, you chose, you chose, not to make your car payments. I asked no questions - I thought that the experience of potentially losing your car - would scare the crap out of you and you would get back on track. I lent you $1160 - no questions asked.
I, no questions asked, escorted you to pick up your car. Unfortunately, this did not scare the crap out of you.
I tried to share that with you... until you pay off this kindness, you should not spend your money elsewhere. You should not go to PCB. It would be irresponsible.
You think of it as a punishment - that is a childish thougth.
As an adult: that is a consequence. A consequence as a result of something (many things) you did not take responsibility of.
The shame of all this is that if you truly worked off your debt to me, and you could have....
You could have saved your money and truly earned this well deserved break. But you did not honor your debt to me. And you did not tell me...you decieved me...and I do not know why. You lied to me. I am not sure why you find yourself compelled to lie to me.
Laura, you have taken advantage of me, and I have let you. I have attempted to share with you what it would look like to be an adult, to be responsible, to be kind, to be honest, to be trusted and to be respected. Apparently, I have not been successful. You chose to continue on the path of dishonesty and you chose to push others away - rather than share your life and learn from the experience of others. Until now.
And here is another consequence:
Pay attention - because everything that happens - happens as a result of an action you took. You are solely responsible here. You own everything that happens to you from this point forward.
Pay attention.
On Monday, 3/25/2013, when you return, you owe me the balance of your debt to me - IN FULL: repossession of car (minus what you already paid $205) and the totals of EZ pass, and Amex.
This totals approximately $995. I will keep your laptop in my possession until this balance is paid in full. You will not get it back until you pay me in full.
As a final consequence - because trust is intregral in relationships - and I can no longer trust that you can tell me the truth... Laura, although it breaks my heart... (pay attention)....
I have to ask that you move out of my home.
I can not live with someone who lies to me, who decieves me, who disrespects me and takes advantage of me. I will give you until the first of June to move out. I will assist you in whatever way you need. But you can no longer live with me. All this is because....of something you did. No one is responsible - just you. I would have loved to assist you in achieving great success: financial, scholastic, individual, business. You just wouldn't let me.
It is sad.
It is heartbreaking.
You gave me no other choice.
